Love Affair

2010-03-28T15:50:00.004+08:00

FUCK UP LIFE I GOT!

been rotting at his house from friday till now. im at home while he's outside meeting his FRIEND for lunch. hah how pathetic can i get. i've really got nth to doooooooooooooooo & im so hungry waiting for him to come home.

im so tired no matter how long i sleep. i also dont know why man! feel like going to sleep &never wake up. ohya i had a dream just now. i dreamed that i was playing hide and seek, hah how childish!

im gonna get prepared soon &meet leeyee at jp. im gonna just go off if he still doesnt comes back. seriously i dont know what im thinking & what i want. i feel so sad!

gonna go for checkup at 11.30am on tuesday. how am i gonna wake up!? any kind souls wanna acompany me to sgh? hah.

its still work, work &work.
just boredddddddd ~

till then............................

2010-03-21T00:14:00.001+08:00

i'm so sick. i was in pain till i cried so i went to the hospital in the middle of the night ytd. they took my x-ray, blood, everything but still i don't know whats happening to me. gonna go for another check up again. maybe its urine infection or liver infection due to my work, drink too much. i'm on mc for 6 days. hope i'll recover soon!

& you're not there for me..

2010-03-15T00:12:00.009+08:00

work is so tiring every night although it seems easy. i freaking hate the management there as time goes by, totally sucks although i get my pay on time every week. still, i prefer next stop. though we dont get our pay regularly but i still miss the fun, laughters &those outings we have every sunday.

life's a bitch. working almost everyday &didn't even have time to meet dearest as his busy with work too. this kind of life, sucks, TOTALLY. i don't even have enough sleep everyday due to insomnia. i wanna go to the doctor but i don't have time. working from monday to friday again this week. if only i dont have to work how good will that be. *dreaming*

still having cold war with my mom. i wanna end this war but given my temper i won't give in as i always like to act strong. ahhhhhhhhhh ~~ i know she still cares for me =(

i hate it when i got drunk.

i hate it when i need to go to work.

i hate it when i have insomnia every night.

i hate it when dearest don't have time for me.

i hate it when he goes drinking.

i hate it when he don't reply or answer my calls.

i hate it when i'm so paranoid.

i hate it when i tends to think alot.

i hate it when he can't give me the feelings i want.

i hate it when he needs to leave.

i hate everything!

if only i'm a millionaire lor. *think too much*

i wanna get my iphone, asap!

alright, enough of my rantings &craps. dearest is on the way to my house now but he gonna book in at 6am later. i only meet him like once this week which is like later? for a few hours. how sad!

but.... i still love him so much =) xoxo

ending this post with my stomach cramp face =)

2010-03-10T06:28:00.002+08:00

happy one monthsary ♥

2010-03-09T07:38:00.001+08:00

in your eyes i see my future in an instant, i know that might sounds more then a little crazy ♥

2010-03-08T06:05:00.003+08:00

woke up at around 7pm just now. me &dearest got ourself prepared &headed to jp to meet mingjie &wenjing. watched alice in wonderland 3d, i think its not so nice. after movie, dearest &mingjie went back camp while i cabbed back home with wenjing.

i spend like $800 in 2 days omfg! i will work hard to save money to get my burberry(s).

its 6am already but i'm not yet asleep. insomnia once again!

FML

2010-03-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

work was so tiring last night, &i cabbed back tgt with cyndi cause i went dearest's house. was damn tired as i didnt sleep for the whole day due to insomnia &ended up at town shopping with leeyee &kaiqin early in the morning at 10am. we got the same problems! guess i need to go to the doctor asap to get some pills if i can. we looks like some idiot waiting at the atm for 1 hour to 2pm so that our money will be in our account.

went to sleep the moment i reach dearest's house &woke up at 7pm. we went to plaza sing to catch bears as its dearest's fav hobby. headed to boatq aft that to look for freddy &chit chat awhile with wenjing. &now i'm at dearest's house using his macbook blogging.

i'm working from mon to sat this coming week as i don't know whether dearest will be booking out. i bet he will go drinking aft that haha. i will definately miss him :( only meet him like twice a week only that sounds so sad.

its gonna be our 1 monthsary soon!

dearest, i love you.

2010-03-04T18:33:00.003+08:00

still miss those times being together with you ♥

2010-03-04T05:39:00.003+08:00

dearest came my house to find me just now! hehe he's very sweet today, like honey. maybe he did something wrong outside? haha! i just love to cuddle with him but too bad not every night. he needs to go back camp while i need to work, not much time for each other :) but every min spend with him is worthwhile.

fetch him back to camp aftermath with leeyee &we both went to work. we're so late! work was so boring, drink quite alot. was released at 5am &now im at home sweet home. gonna sleep soon &dream of dearest! working at 9pm tmr night.

having a cold war now with my family, the feelings sucks!

payday today, im a happy girl :) i wanna seize all the burberry(s)!

goodnight earthlings :)

2010-03-01T17:38:00.003+08:00

I'm back to blog!
suddenly got the urge to blog. life has been good for me but not my r/s life. changed to another working environment(whale) which will be better. only work on monday to friday so i could enjoy with my lovelies on weekends. & i hope life will be better in the future.

i'm having insomnia every night, i don't know why. maybe i love to think alot, sometimes things are just so simple but i make it so complicated.

finally i've committed in another r/s after so long & i hope i wont make the wrong choice.

will update this blog as soon as i can when i'm free! xoxo

2010-02-05T15:56:00.004+08:00

finally its my last day at the next stop tmr. i can still rmb the times when i just started to work at dolphin then to next stop. 6 months just pass like this.. seriously i dont bear to leave there but i know its a must. &i will miss my gfs there! however i just hate ppl taking me for granted.. &i know its not a wrong thing to leave there. &i shall start planning for my future.

2010-01-28T04:17:00.002+08:00

in the near future, i'll blog again :)

2009-12-11T04:09:00.003+08:00

went for serene's wedding from ytd dawn till night. its tiring &i didnt sleep at all. imagine 8 ppl squeezing at a queen-size bed -.- but e whole procedure was quite fun though. &did some catch-up with minmin, caicai &leeyee. wishing serene a happy marriage!

i get disappointments over &over again. just so sick &tired of everything but my heart just wont let go..

2009-11-16T04:16:00.002+08:00

just came back home from chalet. went to look for freddy they all, yeah &help them bring poker cards..... dont know why im soooo lazy to go out on every offday. ahhhhhh ~~~

sooo full now, sis just cook maggie for me its soooo nice ^_^ i really need to go on diet plssssss! gimme some determination. i always told myself to just eat 1 meal per day but during work i'll just have e urge to eattttttt. how !!!

&sorry for e things i said when im drunkkkkkkkk. i know u all trying to make me happy &dont want me to feel this way.

2009-11-14T16:49:00.002+08:00

working has been quite shag recently. make me dont feel like working anymore. alrdy did my best but somehow dont think they appreciate it. how sad it is to make me feel this way.

just wanna blog out my inner thoughts! im so stress everydayyyyy thinking how to pump up e sales this &that. for others they may think work for me is easy. but seriously it may seems easy but actually its not. ahhhhhh to much to complain but i just have to continue working because i've promised someone. but i know 1 day i'll surely freak out.

2009-11-03T17:57:00.003+08:00

offday today. feeling so hungry right now, gonna go eat with sis later on &stay home tgt with her.

xoxo,
huiiX2

2009-10-27T17:07:00.003+08:00

yuki is going back to japan soon :( he's only coming back in feb next year, so meet up with him ytd for awhile &he gtg. feel sad, nobody gonna hush hush with me! lol.

im feeling quite sick now. still have to go to work. bad flu &sore throat. big sigh!

off for dinner at jp with kunlong :)

2009-10-26T14:13:00.006+08:00

its being a few months since i last blog. working life is currently fine, just a bit tiring. quite stressful too but hope i can cope with it ^_^

24 oct 09 is a very beautiful day :) i know i wont be happy going on this way. but i'll just cherish e moments ahead.

life is full of ups &down. who knows im so indulging in working life now.

going to find 1331717y later, its being a day since i last saw him.

xoxo,
huiiX2

2009-09-14T06:05:00.000+08:00

still love you the most but we need to part.
xoxo

2009-09-02T02:34:00.009+08:00

few nights ago before i sleep i finally knew what i wanted to blog but i was just too busy &today im here to blog but i forgotten what i wanna blog.

haha im currently working at boat quay's wild dolphin. i've worked there for 1month already, everyday its only drink &drink &drink. last night leeyee, wenjing &me was quite drunk, so they came my house to sleep &i got terrible hangover :( drinking for 1 month almost everyday is so sucky. now i think of alchohol i feel like vomitting. &im planning not to go for work this few days. now im just waiting for them to sack me.

yeah &i just came back from cineleisure. went to clarke quay just now with leeyee to meet yuki &him then to cineleisure for movie, the final destination 4. the movie is so cruel, &got a sucky ending. everyone die! aww, so sad! cabbed back home with leeyee after that.

poor yuki.. felt so sad for him. but nvm, we're always there! :)

he's going in ns soon. its just 1 week later! all the best alright bestie :) happy ns-ing. yeah &i definately miss you for sure.

my mum &brother are going to china to look for my daddy this sunday. &i got 1 good friend whose very willing to acompany me to send them to the airport. &its early in the morning at 6am! sigh im such a filial daughter. omg i got nothing to say haha!

my life may sounds good but its definately not. friends come &go. everyone's just wearing a fake mask. lucky im turning clever now! i felt that im lacking of something.. &i think its love.

ohwell but fucklove. &i wanna lead my independent life all by myself.

i feel like venting out my anger, my tears, my sorrows. but i just dont know who to go to.. any kind souls wanna lend me ur ears &shoulders?

yeah &i think my money is endless. no matter how i spend also cant finish. maybe i never really go &spend but i think i spend quite alot cuz im either working or home.

gonna turn in soon. goodnight earthlings :)

2009-08-16T18:32:00.002+08:00

im so busy working & im very depressed recently. shall blog again when im free.

2009-08-02T01:02:00.006+08:00

2009-07-27T17:02:00.013+08:00

The man who can't be moved.

Tuesday.
cineleisure for movie, the haunting in connecticut with leeyee, jrjr &yuki. tiong bahru to get some stuffs &parklane for DotA till morning.

Wednesday.
home.

Thursday.
parklane for DotA then to tiong bahru to get some stuffs, east coast park to chill awhile then back to parklane(again).

Friday.
raffles to fetch jrjr from work with leeyee &yuki, then clarke quay to eat, parklane to DotA awhile then we went to cine to buy tickets for the movie, fighting. went thai club, Nana to chill awhile &back to cine for our movie. parklane for DotA after that.

Saturday.
went jap ass to eat, then parklane for DotA(againagain), tiong bahru to get some stuffs &back to parklane.

Sunday.
parklane for DotA. im like mass playing DotA at parklane now.

photos will be uploaded soon once i got them.
i got so much to tell him, but i dont know how to start..

2009-07-18T15:46:00.005+08:00

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cai &min went overseas throwing me &leeyee at singapore. how good of them haha, but is i dont wanna go. finally my case is closed, i really cant believe it. from positive become negative haha really is god bless me :) now i do believe in miracles hehe. &i hope everything will be fine from now on. just work work work & jr jr jr hahahaha.

2009-07-16T02:48:00.004+08:00

many photos recently. yeah &everything is getting better &better. went for my reporting today &they say must wait for io to call me, so i better pray hard that he dont call me so i'll be fine! haha. after my reporting went to dye my hair with my mummy. i dye light copper gold lol but looks abit brown to me. yeah &im starting work on friday at chinaone at clarke quay! hopefully im able to stable down.

&i want you by my side, can i?

2009-07-14T16:09:00.005+08:00

You are my angel.

Once upon a time, an angel in the sky,
made comfort every night.

Once upon a time, the angel loved me so,
it's a miracle in the snow, my heart won't be cold.

My dear, you are my angel, tell me what you know, something should be told.
My dear, you are my angel, tell me where you go, I will breathe behind your love.

2009-07-13T04:22:00.005+08:00

still got many more lame photos but we wonder how the photos just disappear from the camera when none say they delete -.-
i miss the past.. when we 4 was still so loving.

2009-07-12T15:34:00.004+08:00

went to visit jc on friday afternoon, hope everything's fine for him. he still looks the same, so many cocks haha. went back home straight after &dota till around 9 i head to jurong safra with cai sharon andy as someone ignore me. went dere for some cs then min &leeyee came. play some games haha it was fking funny k i swear. i was shy till my whole body turns red lol. around 12 min &leeyee went off with their friends while we head to jp to slack while waiting for joe to come &we went to jurong bird park to slack. so concidence dat min &leeyee was there too. they were prawning there haha we had some talks about guys LOL but i still dont quite understand. guys are weird creatures. homesweethome after that ~

thennnnn i woke up this morning at 2pm prepared &head to town with sharon. shop a lil &head to parklane to look for jrjrjrjrjr they all. dotaaaaaaaaaa &head to changi slackkkkkkkkkkk.

i dont really know what you're thinking, can you tell me?

2009-07-10T07:49:00.002+08:00

im so bored now! i slept at 8pm last night &woke up aat 12am. i just couldnt get to sleep. &i received a call from jc's friend telling me he got positve for his urine test, so i guess me too. today will be his last visit so me &cai will be going for sure! seriously i dont wish to to go in again but no choice. the feeling sucks! but if thats the case i just have to bear with it. 6months to 1year? think also headache, sigh. but at least after all this i know many things better. &i definately change for th better. i really regret things i do but its all too late.. so next time, think before you do something cause what done cannot be undone. i've alrdy prepared for the worse, at least im mentally prepared but hope the sentence will be more lenient.. arghhh time to emo :(

2009-07-08T22:05:00.008+08:00

yay im going to buy new phone tomorrow together with my sis! like finally i can change my phone, sis too. i just came home from boonlay &im going to parklane later at 12am just to dota with that somebody haha. &my reporting has been postpone to next wed.. argh hope everything will be fineeeeeeeeee :( pray pray pray pray for me. god bless me. i dont want to have anything to happen to me.

yeah &someone has changed. i dont know why he change too. maybe its bcus of my attitude? but nvm if thats the way he want then so be it. i dont care anymore!

alright i miss jc, how i wish he's still here beside me &cai. no one to talk cock with me no one chatting on the phone with me :( maybe gonna visit him on friday. when he come out also dont know whether im still outside. *stabs myself*

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hoping for a miracle to happen ~ but i guess that day may not come..

2009-07-08T00:19:00.001+08:00

happy 18th birthday to my dearest jiejie!

wish you all the best.

LOVE YOU FOREVER ~ MUACKS.

2009-07-06T06:12:00.000+08:00

lets break thru all this together.

i'm sure i can.

2009-06-22T19:47:00.002+08:00

Paranoid

went to celebrate justina's birthday on sat at 496. had a feast &kinda enjoy it. but left after awhile. headed to safra for a round of dota &head to pioneermall as there's some disputes &it all ended at 3am. cabbed back home after that &dota. was planning to slack my sunday away but sharon called me out so we went to halobar to chill with her friends &went home after that. yeah &today is monday i am still slacking around at home i dont know where to go. my reporting is just tomorrow hope nothing goes wrong, wish me good luck alright :)

2009-06-17T20:36:00.006+08:00

HURT

has been staying at cai's house for the past few days.

i love justina mummy.

2009-06-13T17:05:00.004+08:00

LOVED

bl with clar ytd night. played pool chit chat slack eat &walked back to his house with him &i went home. my bro bring our friends back home for mahjong &i joined. hahaha winning spree k. play poker till cai came to fetch me to play lan. was so owning at dota but still lose becze got noob in my team HAHAHA. l4d after that, i was the only survivor k. cai ask us to faster run up the plane i listened to her. she was stuck outside just infront of me, but i did not went to save her LOL i just left her there to die.. good friend right. hehe homesweethome aftermath. was planning to go gym with clar today but he woke up so late just like a pig. hehehe wondering where to go later on. ohya i forgot to say, i love e. i love k. i love 5. i love marlboro menthol. i hate justina mommy. LOL ~

2009-06-12T19:18:00.005+08:00

NEVER LOOK BACK

met clar at lakeside ytd night &acompany him home to change. jp for my lunch/dinner/supper hahaha. safra for kbox as its weijie's birthday. happy 18th birthday weijie! hehe sing sang sung, drink drank drunk till 3am. face was dead drunk like-dont-know-what. kept entertaining him &we walked back to clar's house at 430am cause he wanted to take his uniform &we cabbed to cai's place after that. chit-chat awhile till its 630am den clar left for his camp while me &cai went to sleep. woke up late again today becze my hp from double deck bed fall to the floor then we couldnt hear the alarm. so once again, she went late again(forever) kaka(jiejie) cook egg for us &we went to prepared. hehe took bus home after that while cai went to work. reached home, mummy say wanna go eat so i went with them(eat again) ok im becoming a pig alrdy. im getting more &more fatter! i wanna go on diet but cant. i just love to eat. i love qoo. i love hotdogs. i love hello panda. i love bread..

please dont misunderstood me &clar are just damn good friends!

2009-06-09T21:53:00.004+08:00

BORED

i've been rotting my day away while waiting for my mama to come back with my ciggs &food. someone entertain me can? i gonna die of boredom soon.

2009-06-09T17:46:00.005+08:00

DCZH
when you're with me, i feel so happy. with you by my side, i feel so glad. cause happiness is just a step away. but when you left me, i felt so lost without your touch. you promised to love me forever. you promised no one could take my place. you promised to be there when i needed you. you promised to take care of me too. we always kiss and hug, just like we are still in love. we both know its not the same anymore. memories are what is left to keep me through the day. i guess you decided to throw it all away. i hope you don't forget, how i was always by your side. tears i cried didn't mean a thing. i guess i didn't mean that much to you. but now that its over and everything is done. i finally realised its time to move on.

2009-06-09T05:03:00.004+08:00

postpone to 23rd june.

why do everyone only think bout themself? is human so selfish?

many disappoint me, especially those closest to me. why...

can someone tell me why?

2009-06-08T15:09:00.003+08:00

never look back at what we have done.

baby you hurt me so bad.

2009-06-07T03:17:00.002+08:00

woodland with clar today. clar acompanied me to my grandma's house. met my beloved cousin too. well, i can see that my grandma is sad, she kept asking me abt all the stuffs. but the rest of my family just kept quiet, act that nth happen but i know they care.. head to bugis with clar &bro to find calvin &germaine. bought tix for drag me to hell at 12.15am but the time is only around 6pm? walking here &there hehehe l4d awhile, slack talk smoke eat &we went for our movie. after movie cabbed homeeeeeesweethome. my time is up soon....

Confused.

2009-06-02T06:14:00.003+08:00

currently at caicai's house. town for movie ytd night, terminator salvation, with min, cai, clar &jc. parklane for l4d, cs &dota. cabbed back to cai's house after dat. clar prepared himself &left at 6am to camp while i stayed at cai's house. had a talk with her &fell aslp. woke up in the afternoon but she overslept then dont want to go work zzz. i dota myself while waiting for clar to come find me. prepared myself &headed to bl with him, met galvin too. went to eat &went back to clar's house. watched tv &jc came to fetch me to cai's house. hehehe jc going to report later on, hope everything's fine. 7 more days to my reportinggggg. time is passing faster &faster.. &i wonder when bi's gonna come find me, its almost a month. i think he wont even spare some time out :( sigh im feeling so confused right nowwww. too much things have happen recently..

2009-05-30T02:38:00.004+08:00

all you know may think dat im stupid cze i mix with clarence. but you'll never understand the bond in between us. its so strong that i cant describe. he treat me like his own, carry my bag for me like always, treat me so good like his gf but we're not. we share our everything together. i know you feel guilty but i've never blame you from the start. even the 7days inside i was still thinking of you, nobody else, wondering what will happen to you. &i know you're worried about me too. when i came out, you finally came to meet us. i could feel the guiltyness in you, the way you look at me. but please, dont feel this way. im gonna go reporting on the 9 june &i still hope i could spend mre time with you. even if im in, but most probably its only 6months &i'll wait for you alright. im not worried about myself, but im very worried about you. how much tears i've cried for you. jc told me you told him alot about me. you treat me just like ur sister, you wont let anyone bully me. you dote on me so much i know, i can feel it. thanks for everything deary, the feeling wont change. im always there for you. hope nth goes wrong for you. muack.

&i know many friends care for me, thanks alot. 7days inside, i've been through alot &learn much more things in life. i know, family are still the 1st piority. but till now, i still dont know how to face them. i wanna say sorry to them but i cant do it. i've been acting strong infront of them always. sigh really dont know what to do. i know i've make alot disappointed in me, but its all too late. just hope everything will be fine on 9june. god bless me.

thanks darling for your everything, you know the feeling will never change..

2009-05-26T18:03:00.000+08:00

IM OUT !
DONT ASK ME WTF HAPPEN.
WANT MEET ME CALL ME ALRIGHT.
I ONLY GOT 2 WEEKS !

2009-05-16T16:48:00.002+08:00

was dead drunk dat day at double o. lucky clarence deary send me home hehe. planning to go st james ytd but not enough time so didnt went haha. but sharon gave us many problems ytd. luckily everything is fine.

2009-05-15T04:49:00.003+08:00

i miss my baby alot, really.
i wanna run away with him.

Disappointed.

2009-05-13T21:16:00.009+08:00

i met up with germaine elson leeyee clar &calvin the day before at jp. was planning to go vivo but we ended up at imm. walked around & dey wanted to go s11 to eat. headed to cai's house after that, waited for her for 1 hour becze of something so clar came to find me. head to pioneer mall to look for pengyuan germaine calvin &elson. chill around and cabbed to clar's house. i wanted to go home but clar keep asking me to acompany him. drink at his poolside and cabbed home at 5am.

i went lot 1 ytd to meetup with my cousin, shop abit &we went imm(again) walked around for a lil while & we cabbed to jp. but around 15min her brother came to fetch her while i waited alone at jp for clar. cabbed to hke after he reached to look for sharon &clar went to his auntie's funeral while i meetup with zikoon to acompany him to eat. cabbed back home after that &i dont wish to elaborate what i did for the rest of the day. SUCKS!

was planning to meet jieming &co for dota at parklane today but i woke up at 7pm. haha was too tired. im in no mood to do anything now but clar keep psycho-ing me to double o. so i gotta go prepare now, byeeeeeeeeee.

looking at germaine &calvin so sweet i wish me &dczh could do the same too but its so impossible. i miss him alot he's my boyfriend/baby/bibi/dear my one &only precious. he's so mysterious but he wants me to be understanding &support him he whatever he do. i will becze he's my precious baby. i love you.

I FEEL SO EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW.

Forget.

2009-05-12T21:26:00.007+08:00

I know alot of photos, not happy don't see.

Double O tml night.

Powerhouse this saturday.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY CAICAI.

But now you're at Thailand enjoying with Min. I really miss those times together, how close we are. Those memories wont be erased. But now, things change. I think we both have our own lifes & I'll just let things end this way. I remembered saying I would rather lose 10 years of my life just to keep you by my side. But now.. I guess you only need her. I'm sorry for all the quarrels &the lies in the past. But now, nothing matters anymore. Take great care of yourself &you know I'll always love you.

Party.

2009-05-11T03:07:00.003+08:00

went jb ytd, overnight there. went partyworld just now for shijun's birthday. so many people haha partied abit too. played cs at lan after that hehe. photos will be uploaded soon.

i think i should try to stop.

2009-05-09T09:03:00.006+08:00

Sweet couple.

The girls.

Group photo.

Dancefloor.

Photos at Zirca. There's about 130 photos but I only blog about 40 photos.

More photos at http://unexpectedlov-e.blogspot.com

ENJOY ~!~

2009-05-08T19:17:00.003+08:00

Zirca ytd night. Its been a long time since I enjoy myself.
Its really havoc with them around, partied through the club.
Photos will be uploaded soon. Damn lots.

you dont have the need to keep on spamming my blog, going around telling other people not to trust me. its up to them to see who they wanna trust, saying so much oso no point. we're really over so no point continue quarrel.

2009-05-07T17:37:00.003+08:00

so obvious spammers came when i just started quarreling with you.
not many ppl knew about all this things.
we shall go our own ways.

2009-05-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

我宁愿对你从没认真过, 到底这感觉谁对谁错, 我已不想追究.
越是在乎的人越是猜不透.

DCZH

2009-04-28T04:14:00.010+08:00

Before.
After.
L4D "bang bang" haha.

ME & MY BITCH CUT OUR HAIR SHORT HAHAHA! HER PSYCHO-ING POWER LAH. i waited so long for my hair to grow long but now..

my bitch hair v style hor!

Paranoid

2009-04-27T12:25:00.004+08:00

L4D with my bitch, Clarence, Ivan & Sharon ytd. Clarence fetch us home at 12am. My bitch came to my house to stayover. Fell asleep after awhile, was too tired -.- Woke up early in the morning at 11am. Cooked breakfast for my bitch hehehe. Hope she loves it.

Clarence is so fortunate, he got 2 wifey.

Love you.

2009-04-26T13:13:00.003+08:00

i just love my bitch.

2009-04-20T15:23:00.000+08:00

Cherish what you have, because when it's gone, it'll be gone forever.

2009-04-19T16:17:00.004+08:00

谁还记得, 是谁先说永远的爱我?
first time in my life my tears fall so uncontrollable,
but she's still the one you love most.
sorry i cant accept the fact.

Jealousy kills.

2009-04-17T00:54:00.009+08:00

im glad everything is fine now. but there's still some problems which idk how to settle. just let nature takes it course. some things are still so complicated. lionel goh is coming back soon but i still duno what to do.

2009-04-15T10:33:00.001+08:00

i hope things will go back to the way it used to be.

2009-04-13T14:36:00.004+08:00

why dont you tell me where it hurts now?
i'll do my best to make it better.
yes i'll do my best to make all the tears all go away.
& if you let me stay, i'll love all the hurt away.

2009-04-12T13:18:00.001+08:00

Trying to be happy everyday.
Trying not to think so much.
Trying not to miss you too much.

2009-04-10T05:19:00.017+08:00

manymany photos :> hehehe. i meet my friends to amkhub for movie(the unborn) okay lah not bad. went back home after dat. today went to jp with leeyee &sharon to walk around slacking like a idiot. somebody give us balloons hehe. went back to taman to be a fool, only we know why. sigh :( sharon 1 packet of cigg finish within 6hours hehehe we so li hai oh ~ hehe & jm give me gold member for garena i so happy wor ! finally no need spam in room like a idiot. duno where to go later lor, everywhere is boring like fcuk. its been so long since i last blog a proper post. rili no mood lor. nowadays my attitude sucks, becze i never play. i want to play............ but i promise to quit. idk why i like to hehe lor hehehehehehehehehehhehehehe......

FCUK YOU LAH, come back to me will die isit (P-L-E-A-S-E).

2009-04-07T10:03:00.000+08:00

where's the forever you promise?

2009-04-06T03:46:00.002+08:00

你很想我, 我知道.

*stabs myself.

2009-04-05T08:34:00.001+08:00

I wonder.

will the day come?

2009-04-02T04:09:00.006+08:00

Video-call with ~~baby~~ early in the morning &he seems very happy :>
He April fool me when I'm sleeping ._.
Cooked supper together with Leeyee in the middle of the night.
Hehehe, my fcuking chinese B-I-T-C-H.

baby come back to me, will you?

2009-03-31T23:24:00.001+08:00

i miss you.

2009-03-30T03:13:00.003+08:00

Thankyou ~~baby~~ for the flowers.
Really appreciate it lots.
You always said Sengkang to Jurong is god damn far.
But you came down today just to pass me the flowers.
Sorry for quarrelling with you on our ~~1 monthsary~~.
I dont mean it baby :< &sorry for the lies I've told. Hope you'll forgive me alright :>

xoxo

2009-03-29T16:45:00.007+08:00

~~happy 1 monthsary.~~

18th March.

Working at KianTeck hostel. Went St James with Leeyee & Fiona after that.

20th March.

Meet Leeyee & went Jp to find Minmin. Ate Kfc & Zikoon came to fetch me to RC for L4D.

22th March.

Plaza Sing with Leeyee & her friends.

23th March.

Meetup with Leeyee & Gigi at my house downstairs. S11 for dinner. Birdpark with him &Leeyee.

24th March.

Working at SCAL Greenfield.

25th March.

Working at SoonLee. Zouk with Minmin &Leeyee. But was too boring. Shift to Clarke quay. Leeyee cabbed home after that. Went to Zirca awhile & headed to Lunar to drink. Partyworld after that. Went home in the morning.

27th March.

Town with my cousin Pauline. Work at 6pm. Sleepover at Leeyee's house.

2009-03-27T02:44:00.004+08:00

我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人, 我以为这就是我所追求的世界. 然而横冲直撞.

我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福.

2009-03-25T02:56:00.006+08:00

im so suay i accidently delete away my blogskin.
& i had a hard time doing this.
lost some links too :<
argh work tml at 6 oh.

can you stop ur quarrels with me?
i say no means no, cant you just trust me?

2009-03-24T23:41:00.005+08:00

Happy belated happy to Xiaobai' KXG :)

I’m sorry for the things I’ve done. For the bad words I’ve said. For the bad things I did. For the heartaches I’ve made. I've been trying to move past this, but that one moment holding me back, dragging me down, deep beneath the ground, showing how low I went trying to get you back. I want you to know you’re the only one. The girl I think about night and day. There are so many things I have to say. If nothing ever comes to mind, I’ll still care for you all of time. I’m praying for another chance, to prove to you how much I care. To prove to you I will always be there. Please take me back one more time. Please take me back so I can be yours &you can be mine. Now I’m jst hoping things will get better over time. And some day go back to the way they originally were.

2009-03-21T04:08:00.001+08:00

You want me to let you go, it's true. But I just can't stop thinking of you. How do I get rid of this hurt so bad. I need to stop crying and feeling so sad. Does it even matter to you, how much I really needed u? Why couldn't you see that when I was moody and stressed, all I really needed was your attention? Instead u just gave up on me. I am sorry for all the stupid decisions I made, but most of all, I am sorry for losing you this way.

2009-03-19T23:33:00.006+08:00

I don't wanna be like this. I just wanna let you know, that everything I hold in, is everything I can't let go. Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you. I wish that I could find the words to say. Baby I would tell you, every time you leave, I'm inconsolable.

2009-03-17T00:21:00.001+08:00

Our loving msn conversation.

Love you :)

2009-03-16T00:21:00.007+08:00

Me with my family.

Cousins.

Tonight I celebrate my love for you ♥

2009-03-15T02:42:00.010+08:00

Macherson for interview on Friday. Went with my cousins. Bugis after that. Shop awhile & meet ♥Boyfriend awhile cause he's meeting his friends at Bugis too. Had a small tiff & he went to meet his friends. While i acompany my cousin. Went home after that. ♥Boyfriend came to fetch me later in the night & we went fetch his aunty to Jalan Kayu to eat. Back to his aunty's house after that. See them dota awhile & went to ♥Boyfriend's house. On the wy back, quarrelled. Zzz nvm. After that alright alrdy. Dota 1round & went to sleep. This afternoon ♥Boyfriend cheat me up, zzz. 3+ only he told me 5+. Cze he order Kfc & wanted me to wake up & eat, zzz. Dota awhile & quarrel again but alright after awhile. Went to prepared & went Jp. Watch Coming Soon, nice movie but very scary. After movie he send me to Leeyee's house & he went home. Chit-chat slackslack & Leeyee send me home cause I scare. & because she's meeting her. Saw her at my house downstairs but she doesn't want to see me. Nvm, went back home. Nobody's at home, time to emo.
Wedding dinner tonight.

Nights I dream of you, wishing you were here by my side. Thinking of you so many times. I know I meant something to you, with all the time you gave me. It's you I never thought I'd lose. It's you I did confide in. Some days we had our fights, some nights we talked forever. I did not think I had to chose between you & him. Then you left, & heard not a word from you. Why have you treated me this way. I’m sitting and wondering.I'm starring in front of me. I sit with tears in my eyes. Feeling low, I know you're gone. Why did you leave me this way. You promise you will never leave. Why did you have to leave? Why did you say goodbye? But what I feel for you, you'll never know. Why did you leave?

Imy ♥

2009-03-13T20:34:00.002+08:00

One day you’ll wake up and realize that you should have appreciated me.
Appreciated me for all the days I stood by you.
For all the days I stayed even though I should have left.
Appreciated me for all that I did for you.
For all the times I came to you when you weren’t willing to come to me.
Appreciated me for all that you put me through.
For all the times I held on when I should have just let go.
All the times you made me feel low.
All the times you made me feel lonely.
All the times you made me feel hopeless.
All the times you made me feel as if I just couldn’t go on.
All the times you made me cry.
All the times you made me wonder.
All the times you made me mad.
All the times you made me wait.
All the times you made me miss you.
One day you’ll realize, and when that day finally comes, it’ll be too late.

2009-03-13T03:20:00.003+08:00

It’s 3 am. The house is quiet and I cannot sleep. My mind starts racing, my thoughts run deep. I lay alone and wonder about what lies ahead. Does the future hold happiness or does it hold dread. What I wanted before is not what I want now. I know what I want I must figure out how. At this point in my life, I should be able to think & I should be able to plan. The one thing I desire I may never obtain. But it’s not in my nature to whine and complain. But I can go knowing that at least I did try. I reached for a star too bright and beautiful to touch. It was never mine to have, so it slipped from my clutch. Perhaps, some other place, or some other time, the star I desired I could have made mine. & maybe thats just the way our story goes..

Macpherson for job interview later.

2009-03-11T01:26:00.006+08:00

I want to be happy.
I want to be happy.
I want to be happy.
I want to be happy.
I want to be happy.

I just wanna last long with ♥Boyfriend now. I think thats my decision. I don't want anything else except him. Friends? No. Girlfriends? So disappointed. & I hope I won't regret this decision I make. Its time to grow up.
Anyone got job intro?

2009-03-09T22:10:00.008+08:00

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me. I still feel your touch in my dreams. Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last. I need you by my side cause I can't let you go. The good and the bad times, we've been through them all. You make me rise when I fall. You once made this promise to stay by my side. But after some time, you just pushed me aside. Without you it's hard to survive. Maybe I'm trying too hard. Always hoping for the impossible to become possible.

I felt so lonely.
MIA -

2009-03-09T16:36:00.006+08:00

Having to handle relationship & friendship at the same time is a stressful thing.
I can't take it anymore soon. Someone help.

2009-03-09T02:40:00.008+08:00

Have been sick this few days. My head feel as if its spinning. Till today I went to work, I really can't take it anymore so I called boss say I wanna go home & ask him to get replacement. I left at 4.30pm & cabbed home. Rest till now, still feeling so terrible. What to do..

If only you'll care for me abit more, thats enough.

I still miss you alot, can I want you back? So impossible but I still hope for it. Why can't I have a happy ending? Its the 3rd time darling.. Accept the fact & we can be happy ever after. No more quarrels, so we both wont be suffering so badly. Remember the times when we 4 girlfriends were so happily together. Don't you miss it? Everything is changing, so is everyone. I don't want that to happen, seriously. I want us to remain. Don't you remember how we met? How we starting hanging together till we got this close & that no other girlfriends can compare to us both?

2009-03-07T22:47:00.003+08:00

Feel so sleepy now, ate too much. ♥Boyfriend came down to Jurong to fetch me ytd, so sweet of him. Wanted to go Amkhub for movie but I'm too tired & lazy. So he bring me to eat & went back to his house. Fell asleep after eating. Woke up & check my email & realise I got work tml -.- Shag. So went prepared & ♥Boyfriend fetch me to Hougang to eat my Tomyam hehehe :) Went home after that. Love you :) Muack. & I know you love me lots.

2009-03-01T19:46:00.013+08:00

Been with ♥Boyfriend this few days & we went to watch outlanders ytd at amk hub. Hehe now he's at my house & we're going to jp for movie later. ♥Boyfriend I love you & I don't wanna quarrel with you anymore :( Thats what you promise me, you say you'll treat me better. & I wanna quit smoking for ♥Boyfriend's sake. So we can be a healthy couple :)

Updated @ 4.34AM.

Told ♥Boyfriend that I went to sleep just now. But I just can't get to sleep, I don't know why. Sleepless nights almost everyday -.- Sigh, the feeling sucks. & I'm feeling emo once again. I don't know who can I talk to. If only you were by my side, cause you're the only one who I can trust. But now the problem is about you.. Sigh & I think I'm gonna look for another job. My working days getting lesser & lesser until this week I don't even have any working days. Sigh I want a stable job can?

-----♥-----

Do you know that I still miss you? Can we stop all this quarrel? I'm tired of it already. Do you think I want things to turn out this way? Can you just let me do the things I want for once & don't quarrel with me please. We're a family afterall, won't it be weird if you see me with him next time? I want you back, really. I need you, I tried wanting to look for you sometimes in the middle of the night but i just can't find you. Sigh, with you, I will be happier & I won't have sleepless nights everyday thinking of you. Do you really want to behave this way in the future? At least we can try to be friends, its better than nothing at all.

2009-02-27T14:24:00.004+08:00

Today is a special day,
But quite a boring day too.

2009-02-26T04:17:00.001+08:00

If only i'm a vampire.

2009-02-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

When night comes as it always will, I think of you as I lay on my bed. Thoughts of you lull me to sleep, I wake up with thoughts of you. Please understand that this love is not for a moment, I want you to fill the void in my heart, Make these dreams come true. I'll love you with all my heart, I'll be true to this love that we share, we'll share the ups and downs, we'll share the joys, we'll share the sorrows, I'll be a shoulder for you to lean on. You are all I'll ever need. I'll give you my love without reservations. This love will last, if we give it a chance. We never can tell what tomorrow holds. You can count on me when you need someone to ease your pain. You can trust me, my love for you will remain. I'm sure of this feeling, it's unmistakable, I know it's love, it's untouchable, I swear to God, it's unbreakable. There are possibilities..

2009-02-24T01:33:00.001+08:00

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hehehehehehehe.
work just now time pass so fast hehehe.

2009-02-22T05:27:00.007+08:00

beautiful days...

hehehehehe ai ni oh~

idk why my mum says she didnt see me vlong alr lol.

yay pay day coming soon !!!

so broke.........

you know i still miss you.

2009-02-18T06:12:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-17T03:35:00.003+08:00

happy valentine's day honey .
not in good mood nowadays ..

happy 19th birthday pauline !

work on wed & thursday.

dying my hair soon hehe.

ohya shld i cut my hair short?

2009-02-11T03:16:00.003+08:00

went jb at around 5pm hehe and went shopping with family.

went to eat at restaurant to celebrate my grandma's bday.

i had red wine sprite tea and ice water haha lik drink so manyyyy.

ktv at 10pm.

the ktv is like damn high class ~

the waiter will follow u wherever u go.

& i was like running about and he took my drink and run here & dere with me.

i think i was making a fool of him haha.

den i play pool after 1 round he will help you to place the ball dis and dat.

smoke he will take ashtray for you heheh like dog only.

& my mama say its 4k rm..

sing sang sung and home sweet home at 2.30am ~

damn tired leyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :(

work on wed thur fri :(

valentine's day on sat lalalalas ~

who wanna be my valentine ? hehe.

i hope its you but ....... :(:(:(:(

2009-02-10T01:22:00.003+08:00

sick & tired of everything..

2009-02-08T22:34:00.003+08:00

if only you know how much i miss you.

if only you know how much i need you.

if only you know how much i love you.

if only.....

2009-02-05T19:39:00.001+08:00

you've changed..
if only i could use just 1 word to express my feelings now.

2009-02-05T00:27:00.002+08:00

its all over..
no promises.

2009-02-03T01:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY EBILIBALA LAOPO !

muackmuack ai ni oh ~~

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY NIGEL !

2009-01-29T02:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHIINESE NIU YEAR !
everyone huat huat ok.