life's a bitch. working almost everyday &didn't even have time to meet dearest as his busy with work too. this kind of life, sucks, TOTALLY. i don't even have enough sleep everyday due to insomnia. i wanna go to the doctor but i don't have time. working from monday to friday again this week. if only i dont have to work how good will that be. *dreaming*

still having cold war with my mom. i wanna end this war but given my temper i won't give in as i always like to act strong. ahhhhhhhhhh ~~ i know she still cares for me =(

i hate it when i got drunk.

i hate it when i need to go to work.

i hate it when i have insomnia every night.

i hate it when dearest don't have time for me.

i hate it when he goes drinking.

i hate it when he don't reply or answer my calls.

i hate it when i'm so paranoid.

i hate it when i tends to think alot.

i hate it when he can't give me the feelings i want.

i hate it when he needs to leave.

i hate everything!

if only i'm a millionaire lor. *think too much*

i wanna get my iphone, asap!

alright, enough of my rantings &craps. dearest is on the way to my house now but he gonna book in at 6am later. i only meet him like once this week which is like later? for a few hours. how sad!

but.... i still love him so much =) xoxo